The last time we talked, I left you to swim to the shore where Jesus was waiting.
Mirroring the reckless decision of Simon Peter, who couldn’t wait the time it would take for the boat to reach the shore, both he and I (I more metaphorically) dove into the sea and swam to the shore to reach Jesus as quickly as we could.
I can only try and explain the reason to jump rather than wait by borrowing an ending line from one of my favourite films, ‘When Harry met Sally’, where Harry confesses- “when you realise you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.”
I think that realisation pushed Simon Peter and I over the edge of the boat and into the sea: both of us realised that Jesus is our greatest need- and if Jesus is who we want to spend our life with, we want that life to start as soon as possible.
But I think that these new circumstances have caused many of us to question what this life will look like and we begin to use the language of impossibility and disbelief and doubt… I am a teacher and conversations with other teachers centre on the impossibility of going back to work; conversations with friends are full of doubt about what will happen and my own children are full of disbelief as life has shifted again this week… Isaac didn’t believe that he could swim in the sea- what if the police came? And Lyra was in disbelief as she realised that she couldn’t be with her friends as she had hoped. And me? Mum. Teacher. Aimee. The idea of home-schooling and working until September at least? Impossible. The practical implications of trying to create class sizes of 15 with 2m social distancing? Disbelief. And Aimee? Self-doubt and condemnation often come knocking on my door at the best of times.
Aimee-beloved- I love impossible situations- tell them how you let me into yours…
Impossibility, disbelief and doubt are the soundtrack of Aimee BC. When this track begins to play, do you know what Jesus has taught me to do? Do you love me? He asked three times. Of course, I love you, you know I love you… Jesus also turned up and made an impossible situation possible… It was two weeks ago, about 6.00pm, a Thursday evening and I was getting tea ready- all the usual domestic stuff. I was also multi- tasking- following an online course and this session asked you to invite Jesus to dinner (Revelation 3:20) and ask 3 questions: 1) What would you talk to Him about today? 2) What do you think His response would be? 3) How would He say it? What is His tone?
So, it felt natural to lead from the video into inviting Jesus to come join me for tea-but suddenly the power goes in the house: life becomes all practical and real as I fix the fuse (easy part) and then try and find what caused it (the harder part). It was the oven. And I’m looking at it- in disbelief (No! Why?) and thinking how can I get this fixed at a time like this? It’s going to be impossible! Anyway- I get a nudge in my spirit- remember the story you heard where the guy prayed for the dishwasher? Rueful smile, doubt- I liked the story but really? But then Jesus had got my attention- So, Jesus you’re here for dinner, we can’t talk properly and I can’t sit and eat with you cause the oven is broken and yet You are speaking and You are saying to pray for the oven. Ok Jesus- we’re both laughing- I’ll pray. So I pray for the oven and then the phone rings- ‘real’ life begins- it’s my dad- a cynical atheist- why don’t you pray for the oven? He scoffs… I already did… Then Isaac and I watch a film, I post a plea on Facebook for advice; look at YouTube videos on oven fixing, eat popcorn and head to bed...And then the next morning, when I wake up, I’m nudged to try the oven... And? It is WORKING! And it is still working.
So, what does life look like in these times?
Life looks like what- or Who we look at! My life looks like Jesus coming for dinner and staying to fix my oven.
And the bit that is really giving me joy is that if I keep looking at Him, He keeps looking back and speaking- see that impossible situation? I can fix that. See your disbelief? I can rebuild that. See that doubt? Let’s get it gone.
So, if you invited Jesus to dinner today, what would you talk to Him about? How would He respond? What song would He sing over you? I’ve got a feeling it would be a love song…